Tug of war.
A forward pull and a backward pull. both tugging for dear life. who you are in the middle, the person you used to be and the one you hope to become , on opposite ends. both tugging and pulling and grasping. Both have the same goal in mind :survival . Neither one wants to give up . neither one wants to die.
Philippians 3:13 . Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,